For the past week or so, I’ve had this ominous feeling that I’m losing you.
And it tends to go away in your presence, but sometimes it’s just enhanced.
Ever since that dream, I feel like you’re slipping through my fingers.
And it’s as though you’re not all mine anymore.
I know it’s not true, but the feeling’s there anyway.
Well I wrote your name and burned it
To see the color of the flame
And it burned out the whole spectrum
As if you were everything
Mine just burned gold
A normal flame
I am not anything
And all that I remember is the feeling of waking up
When we were kids, you were the sun to which my eyes could not adjust
We were kids - I was a fountain
You could never drink enough
Then came all the boys who swept you up
Played careless with your heart
And every night there was a new girl
Sitting beside me in my car
Something dies when you grow older,
But you do the best you can
I am glad
I am glad
You found a good man
This town isn’t made for friendships.
It’s not made for romance or alliance
or even for acquaintanceship.
This town is deceit.
And it’ll get you sooner than you know it.
I’ve not seen much love in this town and I
Haven’t seen much respect.
And least of all do I see excitement past the usual
Drama that enfolds us all and keeps us here.
I know why people leave
And I know why people come
I’ve never understood why people stay.
I try so fucking hard for all this shit.
Alongside fuckers who practically have no interest/idea.
Who gets the job?
There are nights when you feel you don’t deserve the sleep
Nights when you think and think and think
About all her alternatives.
About all her stresses.
About all her wonder
About how maybe you don’t make the best use of it.
About how maybe you don’t make the best use of yourself.
About how maybe she always has been
And always will be
Better than you.
But she’s the best for you.
She’s the best there is in this entire godforsaken world for you.
And you want to know you’re best for her
But there are nights
There are nights when you don’t deserve to sleep because
Sleep should be enjoyed by people like her
Not by scum like you.
I love you so much that it hurts my head
You know when you’re so fucking happy you just want to cry all over the place?
always have the biggest smile on my face thanks to you
everyone’s breaking up so suddenly……
what if we don’t make it?
qurl we gon make it 4eva
Damn. You just make me so fucking happy.